I'm completely terrible at procrastination! I stayed home from university today to write this damn paper before I go to the doctors this afternoon and all I've succeeded in doing is stalking a bunch of old blogs from year 11 and 12 that my friends had written. I'm so hopeless.
I have to see the ENT this afternoon so hopefully he will be able to fix me. Lately I've been so run down and my immune system is suffering. My body aches from the constant dance and it hurts to lie in bed at night. I'm not sure if I can keep this up. My knee suffers constantly and I don't know if it will hold up. I'm deadly scared of snapping my ACL because then I'd be really screwed. My course is hard and it doesn't help with motivation to get my assignments done. It's almost like I'm back doing my HSC again. I feel the same as I did all last year with the constant tiredness and headaches. My mindset last year was not good and I'm scared of slipping back into that, especially now that I have so many things in my life to be happy for.
Today I got paid and I now feel the urge to do some serious shopping. But I can't because my parents will see my statement and get cranky.
A plane is flying overhead.
I just felt my knee-cap grind twice.
I don't really know where to begin with this assignment, or what to look up. I feel extremely guilty not going to school today and staying home because I am sick and I need to do this assignment. I feel even guiltier about staying at home and procrasting. I keep thinking of things I need to do (like go to the bank and yell at them about who has been taking my money)
I'd like to go for a calming drive to clear my head actually.
I'd also really like to go home.
I have to work tonight and I really do like my job. Everyone is so lovely. I get paid wicked money too.
I'm so lonely in Sydney but. I really would just like to go home.
The end.
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